Nessa needs a hug.

[LadyLucy offline]

I'm afraid. I might have to change my major.
I hate my disorder....I can't sleep, I can't concentrate...
I hate my voice...I can't sing, at least not well. But I love to sing....I don't wanna be a piano major. Yes, I love to play piano...but I'm some upity classical pianoest...I wanna do something else other than that! I don't wanna do piano...I don't wanna play what everyone else plays... I wanna do my own thing...why can't they get that?
All I want is my love and my family to be proud of me. Anthony loves me...I certainly hope he's proud of me, though sometimes I don't understand how, when his girlfriend's a forgetful, annoying, strange idiot who can't shut her mouth and stop crying...(did I mention that I hate being a girl 'cause I HATE crying?!)
My family...I know my grandma and all the rest of them are...but they don't really care. They just wanna see if there's anymore drama to cause throughout the family...My dad is proud of me...my mother says she is...But I don't believe her, fully.
Ask me what I wanna do in my future? Truthfuly...I wanna be in Lousiana with my darling, being a freelance musican and artist. But can I tell them that?! Gods no.... So my answer is "I don't know". Screw the Broadway idea...it could never happen. I"m not bold, I'm not loud...I can't do that.
I know I shouldn't be complaling...there's alot of ppl much worse off than me... I'm sorry....
I'm just afriad.

[Writing_Addict offline]

Aww....Nessa (if that's your name or nick name...) get's a BIG hug.

I know how you feel. I'm scared to live my life on my own....I want to be a writer but yet...something tells me I don't. I can relate to you!

[Reploid CB]

I know how you feel, I really do. Feeling afraid, possibly feeling trapped, is one of the worse feelings in the world. And the bad part about it is, it can hit you at any time.

But the good news is, you can overcome the feeling of fear, and put your minds to other things. Put it to finding out what you wanna do with the rest of your life. I know I went through my own yo-yo'ing period. First I wanted to be a vet tech, but ditched it because my grades weren't high enough. Then I thought about being a voice actress, and while I might still reach for that someday, it's not high on my list of priorities. Nowadays I know I wanna be an artist, because of the sheer joy I get from drawing and coloring and such, and the happiness I get when people enjoy my art. Find what makes you happy doing it, and what makes you happy because others enjoy experiencing it (if that second one applies).

[Rail Runner offline]

Everything will be ok...I am gonna call you in a minute and we can talk ok.

[Lola offline]

Im sorry

[Lyoko SA80 offline]

I never know you to be like this lassie .You are the stongest willpowered girl .I know .If you put all you hear and soul into music.I scotland muisc is the culture and soul of this land .Runrig is my fav group I met them 3 times and guess what they said me.You are the music listen to youself and be the lad (lassie in your case) you are.Music come's from the heart never forget this.You can sing .you can sing but then aeltia .You heart this the most powerful weapons everyone has. You havn't disorder no one .You family do care .I but you family are so prond of you .There is nothing to be afriad of .I here and the rest of the lyokofreaks .Be a free laance musican and artist .Come to scotland and see what I mean by music from the heart.

[HYDEfangirl offline]

I am so sorry *gives a really big hug*