Depression?

[Paige offline]

I don't think that I am depressed, but according to my sister, many of my friends are worried about me. Three of my closest friends have asked her if she knows if something is up with me, and they haven't even asked me about it.

The thing is...

I'm not depressed.

But I have been having a hard time lately. School is so stressful, it is nearing the last 5 weeks and my teachers are packing in the lessons to finish what they need to teach, which means more homework, more projects, more tests, more quizzes, more stress. That plus my lack of sleep because I'm up late studying, and my mom makes me go to the Y with her everyday to work out, I'm just plain tired. At school, I may seem distant and not talkative, but I'm just trying to get through these last 5 or 6 weeks.

And then there is the drama I have had to deal with. That he-said-she-said crap that is so ridiculous and almost always a misunderstanding, that has happened a bit too much to me lately, and I haven't had to deal with this much "Well, I'm not his friend anymore." crap for the past two weeks that I'm about to snap some people's heads off.

And on the friend issue, my two best friends are constantly together lately and they really don't bother to ask if I want to hang out with them. In fact, they just spent the past TEN days together and I didn't hang out with them, they never answered my calls or anything, so I just gave up. I just don't know what to do anymore...

Then of course there is the fact that I just hope for a boyfriend. I haven't had one in over and year, and although I am proud of that fact, I want one now. Both of my sisters have boyfriends, so I am the only single one in this house. I find these really nice and great guys who I really click well with, but when it comes time for me to tell them my feelings, I either can't do it, or I do it and then they don't feel the same about me. I think my friend Jordan jinxed me. He's had all sorts of trouble getting a girl to say yes to him when he asked her out, and I really haven't had much trouble with getting a boy to like me. But now I am. Maybe it's a good thing though.

I would like some advice, but I don't really know how much advice I can get.

****<b>EDIT</b>****

Tonight I was at the movies, invited my two best friends to go, and I was planning on going back to my friend's house to stay the night. Well, we ended up having to see different movies because the movie I saw was sold out. Well they left me there and so I had to have my sister come pick me up and she got involved in how upset I was, and then my mom did...

And now I feel like I just broke up with my two best friends.

My mom won't take them to The Panic At The Disco concert now...

[ODDCHEEZY offline]

I'm sorry. I'll pray for you for now. At the moment I'm not sure what to tell you. Just for now keep pressing on. It'll get better soon. I promise.

[phantasm offline]

It's awful losing contact with close friends! I felt like that in primary school when my closest friend seemed to enjoy the company of another good friend more... Maybe that's why you're yearning for a boyfriend?
Who knows... maybe they've secretly got together in a closer way... that's only half a joke; that happened to two others I know -_- In any case if they're your best friends it's not fair of them to leave you out of the loop like that.
Anyway this sucks for you, but you'll feel much better after the stress of school (final year?). I hated that and I felt fantastic when it was over despite any other problems at the time!
Unfortunately that's not really advice, but things will improve in time. It's just the time part that makes it more frustrating. Hang in there! I'm always free to chat

[Phoenix Wolf offline]

I know exactly how you feel. It sucks, my roommate suffers from depression... let me know if you need help.

[yumi_shinoda offline]

Oh dear, this is not really good.
I suggest that you find someone trust worthy to talk to, let out your emotions and cry out loud if you want to. Just don't keep it to yourself, it's really terrible to do that. ( I used to have this kind of problem, but I managed to get rid of it by talking to a social worker in my school)

Anyway, if you really need someone to talk to, feel free to find a social worker ( I'm not sure if that' s the name in your area)or someone whom you trust the most to talk to. Well, I'm a social worker in training by the way.