friendship twisted in all different directions

[baruk offline]

recently i've been going through a lot of hard times. mostly family/friends dying and generally hating me. the one that has hit me the biggest was one of my senior friends.

we have this sorta big group of girls and we like to hang out and we've been friends since 7th grade. now...we hooked one of my friends (we'll refer to her as...concert mistress) with another dude in our (all my friends are in orchestra with me) orchestra her sophmore year. now concert mistress's parents didn't like the dude and forbade her to see him. we did a lot of lying and such to get them to see each other and it was working out for a while.

many of the girls were too much of a wimp to tell the concert mistress anything so one day i stop the concert mistress in the hallway and talked to her about what was going on to her face. (because we would we get if we didn't talk) basically it came out that she ONLY trusts her boyfriend and it doesn't matter what we thought.

that pissed me off because i was the only one there when she was afraid she was pregnate. her boyfriend completely ignored her.

then it comes out that she hates my bestest friend because she starting dating a guy concert mistress didn't like... and she hates me because she hates my best friend.

i really can't imagine her NOT being my friend...even though she essentially told me to piss off (but she never said it to my face so it never happened yet) but i can't stand to be friends with a person who considers me less than dirt. it just...it's been bothering me for a long time and it helps to let it all out.

[The BB of C offline]

I can imagine you would feel better after saying all that.

[Rail Runner offline]

Honestly Baruk....anyone that treats you that way is not a true friend at all....make new friends and move past this....now as far as for the family dying...well all I can say there is that Im very sorry to hear that, and you will find the strength to move on, trust me, I know the feelings. If there is anything else I can help you with...you are more than welcome to pm me anytime..ill respond as quick as I can. You will make all sorts of friends here, we can and will help you as much as we can.

[baruk offline]

Honestly Baruk....anyone that treats you that way is not a true friend at all

...i appreciate your advice but i'm new so you don't know how highly i consider my friends. no matter what my friend (or ex-friend i guess) does...they are my friend and i would give up my life for them. you might think that crazy of me especially if they left it that they don't care if i killed myself...it's from my personal experience that a friend is more important than it might seem to be. i was just kinda venting and i don't quite vent as often as i should. but your advice is duely noted.

[mooshie offline]

well you may have read some of my previous posts so you may know my standpoind on the whole concept of "friends" but I will say it again just in case, friends, unless the understand you, are not worth the effort it takes to make them. Now call me crazy but it sure seems like if a person thinks of you as between a cockroach and the white crusty stuff the collects on the edges of your mouth I don't think that they really understand you, my advice would be try to do without friends until a good friends presents themself to you or see my advice in the rant post "why can't people learn"