March 19th

[Quin Separable offline]

I really didn't want to come here after I haven't posted in a while and start whining, but I really need you guys to keep me and my family in your thoughts\prayers.

Today, March 19, 2006 is the 5 year anniversary of my father's sudden death. It's only 9:30 AM here and let's just say this is going to be one long day. The week is probably going to be pretty long to.

I have my radio blaring and I'm on my computer so I that way I won't think about it, but it's obviously not working.

I keep thinking about how my dad wasn't there when I got my driver's license or my sweet 16th birthday. He won't be there when I graduate from High School next year. He won't see me off to college and graduate from there. And he won't be there to give me away at my wedding (if I have one that is). If I ever have kids, they'll never know their grandpa. And there's just little moments that he's missed and it just makes me really sad to think about.

I try to think about the fun times with him, but when I was little he was gone a lot (working down around Texas while we live way up North). So it's hard.

Sorry guys, I don't mean to whine but thanks for at least listening (well reading I guess)

[KayLenny#7 offline]

March 19th is just an all around sucky day. Just know that you're not alone with the 19th blues.

[Skorpigeist offline]

I will indeed keep your family in my thoughts even though I don't know them. I will say depending on what you believe about an afterlife or the human spirt that your father is with you. And as long as you remember him he will be there.

[Quin Separable offline]

Thanks. I really appreciate it.

[Just_Jaine offline]

March is a rotten month. You’ll always remember your father and the space he left in your life. Don’t try to hide what your feeling, it’s okay to grieve.

[Jeremie Lover offline]

Scientifcaly speaking, Marth 19th is called the " Sadden Day" or " Le Burthe" in russian.

We all shall remember your father Kia.

*hugs*

[Chosen_one offline]

I'm sorry about your father. My father is just annoying, but I'm sure your father wasn't. It really sucks to lose a family member.

I keep thinking about how my dad wasn't there when I got my driver's license or my sweet 16th birthday. He won't be there when I graduate from High School next year. He won't see me off to college and graduate from there. And he won't be there to give me away at my wedding (if I have one that is). If I ever have kids, they'll never know their grandpa. And there's just little moments that he's missed and it just makes me really sad to think about.

That's so sad. I'm sorry your father won't see you grow up.
If you like Spring more than winter, then here's a bright side to March 19th:
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[Quin Separable offline]

Thanks guys. You all are great!

Only 2 more hours left and this blasted day is over with.
Oh I have to go before my mother kills me for being online for so long.

[Kim offline]

I'll pray for you and your family. I'm sorry about your dad but remember the good times, and (I hope I don't offend anyone) try reading Romans 8:28 in the Bible. It's a very helpful verse in trying times. (I'm here for you if you need me, just PM ok?)

[TB3]

Kia, I only found this thread on the morning of the 20th, but I hope you came safely through what is for you a very sad day - my thoughts are with you.

[oddsgrlfriend offline]

I may not know you but I know how you feel. My grandfather and I were very close and he died of lung cancer when I was only in first grade. Like with your father his death was sudden. I know what your going through cause I to think of all the things my grandfather is missing (school plays, 13th brithday, everything else that makes life worthwhile). Just know I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

[The BB of C offline]

I really didn't want to come here after I haven't posted in a while and start whining, but I really need you guys to keep me and my family in your thoughts\prayers.

Today, March 19, 2006 is the 5 year anniversary of my father's sudden death. It's only 9:30 AM here and let's just say this is going to be one long day. The week is probably going to be pretty long to.

I have my radio blaring and I'm on my computer so I that way I won't think about it, but it's obviously not working.

I keep thinking about how my dad wasn't there when I got my driver's license or my sweet 16th birthday. He won't be there when I graduate from High School next year. He won't see me off to college and graduate from there. And he won't be there to give me away at my wedding (if I have one that is). If I ever have kids, they'll never know their grandpa. And there's just little moments that he's missed and it just makes me really sad to think about.

I try to think about the fun times with him, but when I was little he was gone a lot (working down around Texas while we live way up North). So it's hard.

Sorry guys, I don't mean to whine but thanks for at least listening (well reading I guess)

This almost made me cry with the empathy I have for you. I am so sorry that happened. I wish I had something to say that would help take your mind off of it, but I've never had anything on this. I will pray for your family tonight.

[oddlauren offline]

i will pray for you and your family. I hope this week isn't too bad.

[Quin Separable offline]

Well, I think the huge hurdle is over with. Thanks guys for all your kind words, your thoughts and\or your prayers. Means a lot to me.

I'm still a bit irritable, but I'm managing. The week isn't going that bad and the people at school who knew about what the 19th signified for me were all really caring and offered me kind words.

So thanks guys, you are truly wonderful!

[oddlauren offline]

glad to hear it. you're welcome.

[mooshie offline]

wow I'm really late, but even so I couldn't help but give my opinion; my dad might travel a lot and be tough on me but I still care about him a lot, so I can see how a dad that interacts with you more might mean that much to you