Scared

[ji45ojperjfenfpen offline]

Okay, this sounds strange but has anyone ever just felt paranoid of everyone around you? I mean, sometimes in public I just feel so terrified of everyone, and I feel like the whole world is just out to harm me in some way. Then sometimes, even over simple things like going to school and what not I feel so terrified and scared just to go there, and I always look forward to going home. I mean my heart beats so hard that it feels like it will just pop out and I feel like I will throw up, then I stress out and thats when I take one of my headache pills, but I just feel like humans are naturally hostile and want to hurt me. I see some people and they look like bad people, and some people bother me like people bother pretty much evryone else in the world, but I just wonder why they cant leave me alone. I just like being at home and away from the world where I am terrified that some crazy person will come and harm me or someone will be mean to me. I dont understand why alot of people out there cant see like I do, which is to leave people alone if they obviously dont want anyone near them. I dont know why, but I like being by myself more than I should. I dont really have any friends, and yet I find that I am not bothered by it at all. People have always told me that I am too antisocial, or too paranoid, and that people are not out to harm me but I just feel so terrified of everything!!!

[Gauntlet offline]

I can't say I've had the same problems as you're going through, but I did have a general dislike of students in all grades. Not to say I'm Almighty-and-noble/superior, but I was never like most of them. You know, they're on the swings, telling jokes about butts, or playing soccer in the field, and I'm in the corner wondering what it'd be like to do that.

I put that on myself, though. Now that I'm home-schooled, it's become worse. I haven't gone to the campus for anything other than mandatory meetings, I'm locking myself up in the house with the idea that no teenagers are mature enough, or whatever goes through my head. I'm hoping to join some clubs at school, after the trimester ends, to meet some people and keep up contact with people.

Don't end up like that; try to head out there, and talk to people. If you bear the stigma about everyone out to hurt you, it'll stay with you for a long time, and it'll be a pain to break that mindset when you don't need it. It might hurt, or make you sick, but I don't see any other way. If you wait for too long, or further seclude yourself, you'll just be digging your own ditch to get stuck in.

I think you need to find some help, and ditch the medication. Is the medication you're taking addictive? I'm not a doctor, and don't claim to have vast knowledge about medication, but you might be taking those headache pills due to an addiction, or rebound headaches. Even if you don't feel the urge to take it, if you weren't taking pills, you'd have to pop one anyways. (I hope that made sense)

At any rate, I don't think you act rudely towards people, but do you respect them? People can sense when others dislike them, or disapprove of them, and that'll effect their attitude towards you.


I'm not trying to attack you, or act mean to you, I just don't know how else to word it. I don't have a whole lot to work with, but try to work on fixing that, either with therapy or something else (I'm thinking Chinese Medicine here). This'll affect you in the long run if you don't take care of it now.

[Lyoko SA80 offline]

LOL no one is that stupied.I bet you got people around you like friends family around you all the time who will protect when needed .See me, can you remember the first time you met me .It take's time to know someone .See I'm a solider, But as my girlfriend keep saying to me I'm a big softy.I act like a tough hard man like Vin Desial, Ross kemp and that. but I'm a softy and not really prond of it but I don't really care.All I want to do is make happy and fight for a world without danger(impossible).