Okay... so there's this chick. Let's just call her K. I've known her for a really long time, and she was my best friend about two years ago. Then we got into a big fight and blah blah blah... yeah, I became a bit depressed and then she went through some huge changes herself, things I can't exactly pin down but I know have changed. Anyway, about since late summer last year we've tried to be friends again and I guess it was getting somewhere, but not for long.
This past late summer/early fall was also the time I got into CL, which ultimately pulled me out of my depression and since then I've been like "WHEE 8D" (if you haven't already noticed... xD; ) But still in a kind of fragile state, you see. Whenever K'd try to talk to me, she'd always say something that would hit a sensitive spot and she'd piss me off, and she KNOWS whatever she said I don't like talking about, and all our conversations would end badly. Well, it was either one of those kinds of conversations or a talk about stuff that only should belong in BKO, and I definitely did not like talking about stuff like that, with her especially. No conversation we've had for a long time has had a good outcome. But the strange thing is, whenever I talk to her online she's all like "Yay! Lani!
" and stuff, but then in real life, she treats me like some inferior being... I have NO IDEA what kind of message she's giving me so I've pretty much given up.
Sometimes she says she's "teasing" me, which is kind of hard to believe, because whenever she says she is, she looks serious, and not even her eyes look like they're teasing. And more often than not, she'll disapprove if I ever express an interest in something she doesn't like. Take for example this weekend I saw Howl's Moving Castle for the first time, and for at least three hours afterword I was all like "OMG HOWL IS SO EFFING HOT @_@" and she'd go "Ugh, ew, what is your problem?" and look at me like I was a cow from Uranus.
She ALSO knows I'm a bit hydrophobic (all my friends know this... so if you consider yourself my friend know this NOW), so she decides to spurt water on me. Of course there were other friends around. They weren't laughing, because they [should] know that me+water=VERY pissed. She was laughing. I made sure she got a good scolding.
Okay, and sometimes she does things that make me go "wtf..." and don't understand her actions at all... for example, this weekend I went to a birthday party. I was exhausted, so I went to sleep earlier than everyone else. I wake up about three/two hours later and everyone else who wasn't asleep had a movie playing REALLY loud and they were all talking over it. Of course, I've got the amazing power of being able to fall asleep through anything (fell asleep in Japanese class, my class is loud), so I decide to roll over and just go back to sleep. That doesn't really work. K is talking about the randomest things and not to mention at the top of her lungs. What didn't help when she started to badmouth <i>this forum</i>, and that was the last straw really, even if I didn't do anything. You guys are the coolest people I've met in my life (and I don't care if you're only on the internet... you guys are definitely the best), and CL really reflects the stuff I made up as a kid, so she just basically insulted my younger self. Then she started commenting on how immature people were on this board, which is DEFINITELY not true, for a reason I'll get to later. Several minutes later, one of the parents come down and ask us to quiet down, because they could hear us two floors up, and I'm thinking to myself "finally..." So they turn off the movie and proceed to get ready for bed, but get increasingly louder. I'm not at all happy with this, I'm TIRED and grumpy and want to sleep, so I lift my head up a bit and look around. K looks at me and says, "Go back to bed!" and laughs as I put my head in the pillow, and they all resume their talking. Just completely fed up, I say quite loudly and angrily, "SHUT UP!" And it immediately goes quiet. Then I feel something hit me, I look up and K is <i>throwing stuff at me</i>. I tell her, "Will you stop it?!" She drops everything and runs into the other room and starts crying. I'm sitting there like, okay, wtf...
I just heard this from my friend right here who is sitting next to me, that K called her while she was in the other room crying. K called her, who we will dub A, and told A that they were being mean to her... What I don't understand is how throwing stuff at other people and them asking/telling you to stop would be called being mean...
Now this is the thing I was going to get to "later". I was talking to her one day not too long ago and I was talking about CL and stuff, then she insults it. This was like the fifth time she had done this and I wasn't too happy about her reactions to it, so I asked, "Have you no respect for other people's interests?" and then she went on this monologue, and I'm not <i>exactly</i> sure what she was getting at, but all I understood was that she doesn't "respect", but more "tolerate" or something... If one doesn't know how to respect, then my own respect towards them immediately lessens. That is probably why you guys seem much more mature than her (even the 12 and 13 year olds too!), you know how to respect other people's preferences and interests...
Just to clear confusion, I'm not expressing any hate here (although it may seem like it), but rather frustration. She didn't used to be like this....
Phew! I'm glad I got that out of my system. I'm just letting off steam here so yay. If you have anything to say then... that's great, but not needed xD;
I think highly of you as well. and if there is anything else you would like to discuss..feel free to pm me with more details.
