My parents expect so much out of me... They're like Ulrich's parents who think I'm worthless unless I'm in the top 2% for everything. Like once I got a 27 on my ACT, which is better than 90% of high school kids taking the test for college or practice. The first thing my dad did was criticize me because my percentile for Pre-Algebra was 2% lower than my percentile for trigonometry! And then there's my report card. Every time I get B's my parents yell at me. I quote from my mother:
My mother wrote:Don't think B is a good grade. B is a bad grade!
Last year, I was grounded for 189 days (27 weeks or 6.3 months, which is 51.78% of a year) because I didn't get straight A's. They did everything they could... they tried grounding me, scaring me, threatening me, separating me from my friends, isolating me from the internet even though I didn't use it that much... basically they tried making my life miserable.
And then they ask for explanations. I can't give one simply because I don't know one. But even if I did, it wouldn't matter. My parents just assume a reason and say it's true. According to them, anything that contradicts what they assume is an excuse. What's the point of explaning the cause of my "bad" grades if they won't believe me anyway?
The sad thing is that all of this is my fault. Everything they know about educating kids... well they learned it from the parents they know. And every example they have of other kids' grades are from the kids of the parents they know. And this is my fault because I used to hang out with the smartest kids in my school. One of my former friends won the science fair, one of them won a literature drawing award, one of them has awesome reflexes and is able to remember all of his affairs, and one of them got 7th place in the national spelling bee. And now, all of them get straight A's. (And they're all Sino-American, except two of them are also Canadian.) When my parents say "How come everyone else got an A, but not you?", the "everyone else" just happen to have the best grades in the entire school. But do my parents know about American kids? No. To them, everyone else in the school are just like my Chinese friends. I have American friends, too. And they get good grades for American standards. But my parents claim that they don't know their parents. They don't know any American parents, or American kids. They don't know anything about the grades of American kids. And I've been in this mess, in their reign of misery for over a year.
My parents criticize me so much... every day my mother says I'm stupid and that she doesn't understand why any academic sports team would want me, and my dad says that I suck too much...
My mother also said:
My mother wrote:Anyone who gets a B and still thinks well of himself should be reeducated.
And a person reading this would think that what I just wrote was a lot. But I'm not done. (Sorry if I'm boring you; if you don't finish the post I won't get mad...) My school is in debt by 2.5 million dollars so next year there'll be no yearbook, no trip to the state capital, and no sports. Nothing but classes. Man, my life is in such a mess...